after a long night of lightning and howling winds i finally just got up a little before 5 am this morning. to my surprise, my daughter followed me out so with not much else to do at that hour we made bread and i put together a soup with what i had on hand. carrots, beets, onion, ginger - a squeeze of lemon. lots of pepper. it's pretty delicious. someone asked me the other day how i was getting on. i told her i gave up on finding a therapist and took up baking and reading. and wearing my heart on my sleeve for now.